I was told by my friend (my husbands best friend and our childrens God father) that I shouldn’t keep the kids from my husband. He stated that he resents his mom for keeping him from his drug addict father….so I shouldn’t do the same thing.
Now…this friend doesn’t know the while situation. He threw it in my face that when be asked a while back if my husband was in drugs or if he hurt me and I said no. Got me all worked up, frustrated, annoyed and like I needed to justify my actions. But I let it be…not my place to get into details with this person.
Anyway…it has been a few hours and I have calmed down. I know I am not doing the wrong thing, plus my husband hasn’t even attempted to see the kids (he knows his dad can call me). I need to take care of me and my kids…and that is all that matters really. I owe that to myself, to my kids. I owe him nothing…not even an explanation.
I can not make everyone happy, not everyone will agree with my choices…and truly that is ok. More importantly I am ok with others not understanding or criticizing my choices. That is a huge step for me.
I really am ok with it. I am not trying to hurt my husband, he put us in this situation. I am simply trying to take care of myself and my babies.
No regrets. I know I am doing the only thing I can right now.