Well….this is the third day in a row that I have felt ok. With everything. I am not sad, worried, anxious, or depressed. Dare I say…that I think I am happy, and content. For what may be the longest amount of time in the past 4 years.
I am ok. I am happy. I am hopeful. Most importantly I am at peace…with myself, my life, God and thus world. It is a good feeling.
Don’t know what happened…but something in me snapped back into place. I feel alive, free, like I am finding myself again. I connecting with old friends, making new ones, making plans to do what I need to and also what I want. It is an amazing feeling.
I have been listening to the music I was forbade from listening to, I am eating healthy and what I want, I have been working out, I have been cooking. I know to many those things might be a given….but not for me. Now I can though. I have no fear of repercussions, no explaining to anyone and probably most importantly…I have no guilt associated with doing both what I want and need.
While I am hopeful this thinking pattern will stick…I know I might have setbacks. But that is ok…they are only temporary.
I will be ok. Guess what? I finally believe it when I say it.