So…I filed for child support today. Honestly…I am kinda proud of myself. Took me almost 4 months to do.
I am wondering if I am getting stronger, breaking free or being irresponsible and stupid due to a false sense of safety.
It has almost been 4 months since he has hurt me, and a full 2 months since I have has ANY contact with him. I moved 3 times and changed my number…so he couldn’t contact me if he wanted to.
The thing is….child support is a HUGE no no for my husband. Completely unacceptable and a crime he believed is worthy of death….especially if the person filing TAKES the kids without the other persons consent. Eek. Very harsh. My husband had a 12 year old and the mother of his son took the baby before the baby turned one and hasn’t made contact since. She never filed child support…never wanted anything to do with my husband (who was 17 when his son was born). Before we got married I asked about him paying child support…and be said “she won’t file..she isn’t stupid. She knows I’ll kill her if she tries that bullshit.” Yet…like a dumbass I married him. Anyway…the while child support situation was explained to me more than I can count…don’t do it…or he will end my life.
I am stuck between being afraid (because I don’t think it is an idol threat), being cocky because it has been a while since he had hurt me, and being pissed off because he SHOULD do his part.
I guess the cocky and angry outweighed the fear this time. Can’t decide if it was stupid or not yet.